The Scratch Paper Chronicles
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Somehow we've made it through 2012 and 2013 without a blog update. I'm not even going to try to figure out where that time has gone.
So it's 2014, everything was going smoothly on the home front and then bam!
Unemployed. Again.
And I just don't know what the deal is.
PLEASE let me gripe. Don't judge.
Life just isn't fair.
Why does this keep happening to us?
I just want stability.
Oh well. Back on the roller coaster we go.
Friday, July 8, 2011
It's the same old thing...
I know.
But that's not how I feel.
I feel jipped. I feel out of place. I feel sad. I feel unsettled. I feel like I am on the edge of a cliff looking down and there is no way out.
No, my thoughts aren't suicidal. They are just crazed. I look at people all the time. Do they have a job? What do they do that they have that nice car? Go on that fancy vacation? Buy that nice furniture or have their floors redone? Do they have to count pennies at the grocery store? (not by the looks of what's in their cart, they don't!) Has life always been easy for them? Is this the way they thought their lives would be? Do they believe in God? How come they are so abundently blessed? Why aren't I? Why do I have to look at the intangibles for my blessings? Why do I have to pray the same prayer 24/7?
I have $40 to my name for the next 2 weeks. I also have a free movie ticket. But what I really want is freedom. Freedom to go to the grocery store and buy a few extras. To fill my cart at Costco and not worry if my purchase will be approved or not. To fill the car up with gas. To go out to dinner for the heck of it. To just enjoy some of life's tangible pleasures with out feeling the guilt that I am taking food out of our mouths. Or that an overdraft will occur and there goes another $35 bucks that we don't have. I just want to feel normal.
I get it. Life isn't fair. We somehow "got" ourselves into this situation. But I so want out of it. And I am at such a loss. I apply for jobs, get interviews. Not many are hiring. When we were unemployed the first time, I took it with a grain of salt. I was pregnant (otherwise known as "the great distractor"). I also thought we had paid our dues. I guess I was wrong.
I have things I am thankful for. But until our situation improves, my head is going to be spinning and worrying. And wondering.
Every second of the day and night.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
unemployment...
But...it continues...
Saturday, June 4, 2011
6 months later....
Saturday, November 27, 2010
And the winner is...
Oooohhh! Look what I found! How cool would it be to win all of this stuff???
Mama’s Holiday Wish List Meme
TodaysMama (link to: http://bit.ly/tmwishlist) and GameStop (link to:http://bit.ly/gamestop10) are giving away a sleighful of gifts this holiday season and to enter I’m sharing this meme with you.
1. What is your holiday wish for your family? My holiday wish is employment for my husband..he has been out of work for 15 months now and it would be really nice to have some stability in our lives!
2. What is your Christmas morning tradition? The kids wake us up and as I'm getting the breakfast casserole (that I put together the night before) into the oven, they open their stockings. We then sit and open presents and by the time we are done, breakfast is ready!
3. If you could ask Santa for one, completely decadent wish for yourself, what would it be? A new laptop - and I won't even be picky!!!
4. How do you make the holidays special without spending any money? This year is going to be tough, because we don't have extra money to spend. My girls love to craft, and we also use pictures in our gift giving. I have learned to be a coupon-cutting, deal-seeking, only-buy-what-we-need kind of gal.
5. What games did you play with your family growing up? I was the oldest of two brothers and one sister - my brothers loved to destroy things and my little sister was too little to play Life, Backgammon or Monopoly. I found myself playing games with an imaginary friend half the time!
6. What holiday tradition have you carried on from your own childhood? Our Christmas tree is decorated with old and new, home made and store bought, and lots of colorful lights. We spend the day listening to Christmas music and decorating, which I remember from growing up. I still have ornaments that I made when I was younger and love seeing our tree all done.
7. Where would you go for a Christmas-away-from-home trip? I would go to Hawaii, hands down!!
8. Check out GameStop (link to: http://bit.ly/gamestop10) and tell us, what are the three top items on your GameStop Wish List this year? 1. XBox 360 2. Ps3 and 3. WOW for my son for those systems...I should actually have him make out this list..it would be a lot longer and more detailed!
To enter, link to your Mama’s Holiday Wish List post using the Mister Linky box below.
BUT WAIT. Did you think we were done? Oh, you must not know us at all.
We have another stockpile of gifts from GameStop that you can enter to win with our extra entry options.
- Runner Up #1 will receive a XBox 360 250 GB with Kinect and a $250 GameStop gift card.
- Runner Up #2 will receive a Nintendo Red DSi XL Bundle and a $250 GameStop gift card.
- Runner Up #3 will receive a Nintendo Red Wii Bundle and a $250 GameStop gift card.
Extra Entry Options include:
- “Like” Gamestop on Facebook
- Follow @gamestop on Twitter
- Head back to the tippy-top of this post and hit that “Retweet” button.
The deadline to post your meme and comment is Friday, December 10th (same deadline applies for extra entry methods).
* For an example of a Mama’s Holiday Wish List entry post CLICK HERE.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Unemployment
Some people think we should just pack it up and move close or in with relatives. The problem with that is when we do leave it all behind, there will be nothing to look forward to. We can't get an apartment right now because we don't have the income. We can't declare bankruptcy because that will definitly forego our chances of employment. And if we do move somewhere, what happens if we do finally get a job and have to move again? That sounds like real stability to me.
I'm just trying to keep my head up and keep the faith...
Sunday, February 21, 2010
I always have the best intentions....
Sincerely with loads of Irish-Catholic-guilt-that-is-so-ingrained-in-me,
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